dying
i really just wish i could die for a few days and see if anyone really cares. i dont think my death would have that much of an impact on anyone, i really think everyone would live on just fine actually. it's not like i provide anything nobody else can. there's nothing unique about me and i think i have a really easy space in this world to fill. my friends all have other friends and i'm sure they'd be more impactful than i ever could if i just left. i don't mean that much to anyone and i wish i wasn't so replaceable i wish people told me they genuinely like being around me